I feel weird every fucking day this week!!

All I wanna do is listen to Nas. It's like that, <>

I was too late to go to yoga, so I went to the computer lab to attempt some thought retrieval.

Natalie, why do you feel weird:

I think it's because I havn't been getting quality sleep because I've been too anxious, I think I am actually still allergic to something I'm eating, probably gluten but I really need to get that checked out. My legs just feel all funny and anxious and my shoulder keeps bugging me.

How will you fix this:

Stop eating gluten again, and get acupuncture to help with my anxious feelings and my shoulder.

Is it deeper than physical dilemmas:

Maybe a little. It's very hard to tell. I think I feel like kind of a loser lately, not making quality use of all this free time I have. I should really talk to lana about nanny jobs and do some volunteer work. I gotta lay off the dope, it makes me sooooo lazy. I don't like being sedentary anymore, it's partly physical but my mind is also always pushing myself to do more and I can't turn it off.


My friend looked at me to tell me a funny story
I've already heard it but I let her talk
Her eyes are light with anticipation
Mine are the same
She uses her hands and timing
To make my time listening to her
What its worth
Then I laugh
And she laughs
I mention she's told this story before
We hum to a comfortable silence

My poetry is whack dawg.

God damn, I love Illmatic, it is such a good fucking album.

I just want someone to be excited about, to spend a few hours a day with. Unfortunately, lfie has shown me if you want it too much it never comes in the good way, you just have to be open and yourself to others and hope, maybe one or two, will see appreciable qualities.

I'm going to paint my clothes and tan today.