When I think about America, I mostly recall the word "opportunity." 

Being born here, I have an infinite amount of options and roads I could take. Most people in other places have the same options, but they have to do a hell of a lot more to get where I can in half the time. 

I sit next to people at school, walk past them on the street and sip coffee next to them, only they have traveled a million miles more to get where I am. 

Privileged? Most days, I wouldn't say I'm privileged, because most days I very am. I'm blinded like a persistent metal bat up side my dome, sitting down with my wrists limp on a keyboard, staring at myself. I should never be tired. Of all the privileges I have, I indulge in being "tired."

Of course, it is my own watered down version of being tired. Tired because I've poured obscene amounts of alcohol down my throat or tired because I have hated and judged so many of my peers and elders to a point where their very existence is "exhausting." 

My exhaustion that I keep so close, as if it has any value. As if it will do me or anyone around one ounce of good, one drop of progress or growth. All I have is to grow, I have no god, all I have are my small ideas about how I can get on top of this fucking mound of dirt I live on. 

In conclusion, stop being a lazy bitch Natalie.